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I cant deal with IT now!!!!

zzz.

I'm tired. alwayz tired. can i have a wholeday off?? zzzz. can i juz go out without reporting to my parents? can i juz leave? can i dun study? can i dun work? can i dun sleep? or can i sleep forever? can i dun exercise? can i dun b so clumsy?

haix. sad sad.

dear make me sad.
sobs.

thanks aaron. for.. wadever u did.. =)
candycane for sale. ^^

ahma, felt alot betta to shop wid u without looking at the watch.. =x yea. thanks for jio-ing me out. =)

chalet at 11-14sept. jeff cant go.. sigh. make me no mood go as well.. wonder when can i juz go out wid him with THE REST OF THE PEOPLE WHO I KNOW. zzz.

chalet at 12-14aug. wonder can i go and STAY OVERNIGHT.. zzzz.

chest pain. chest pain. chest pain. chest pain. chest pain. chest pain. chest pain. chest pain. chest pain. chest pain. chest pain. chest pain. chest pain. chest pain. chest pain. chest pain. chest pain. chest pain. chest pain. chest pain. chest pain. chest pain. chest pain. chest pain. chest pain.

headache. headache. headache. headache. headache. headache. headache. headache. headache. headache. headache.headache. headache. headache. headache. headache. headache. headache. headache. headache. headache. headache. headache. headache. headache. headache.headache.

vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit. vomit.

I'm falling sick. arghh~~

walao! wtf wtf wtf!

first my PRECIOUS thumbdrive lost. means all my PRECIOUS codes and ASSIGNMENTS and PROJECTS and my BAOBEI thumbdrive bought from KOREA.. IS DUMB FUCKING LOST!!!

second my FREAKING hardrive got problem. CANT READ it or CANT EDIT the things inside. fk la. my assignments oso inside.. walao!!!!!

den there's some problem with the codings.. and codings.. and freaking codings.. dan dumb codings.. and fucking codings.. zzzz..................................... and some other problems..

and there's other stuff which i dun wanna talk abt.. but i feel so irritated by it. wadever lahh~!

thanks to : Lucas. Jerry kor. maomaoren. HBK. HBK. and i dun rmb hu. LOLS. =x

thanks nic. for... being there for me. =x and cheering me up. lols! will smile smile der lah.. dun worry. u din say anything wrong lah.. juz tt ur sentance hor.. alwayz make me "...zzz..." =P u've been a good fren. =)

dear, sorry alwayz fa pi qi at u.. =( will pei dear more when ur sch reopens. =) love u!

fatfong ler lah! ngo yiu pin sho zo la.. eeyer.. ngo tau ngsek jou.. tin miong jou sai lerh lei wa lerh.. haix.. yiu hei luihang lah! heng mong holiday faitit lei lo.. haix.. chen cham.

yea. long time no post ler.. many things happened at the same time lah.. lols..

so many things to do but i reluctant to move nor do anything abt it.. lols..

stupid nic.. i aint dumb okay.. zzz.. everything i say u oso wanna step down.. zzz.. nokia is not uncle or auntie.. it's classic.. zzz.. lols.. ya la.. i bz mah.. no time entertaint u.. go play ur dota lah.. zzz.. faster find one gf lah and stop bugging me.. =x

CHONG XIN ZHI!!! omg! i thought u would forget me der.. lols.. so long nvr see u adey.. lols.. din know u din contact tingli and veron liaoz.. omg. veron had bf alreadi! and trust her din tell me such juicy news.. XD =x ok lah.. i oso din tell u all. =P hope u n ur gf can get betta.. =) and stop making her worry abt u lah.. here accident there accident, here break there break.. zzz.. wanna abit of history? back in Sec1(Form1), XinZhi is a v outgoing and friendly boi.. lols.. he's de first chinese guy.. who come from the grp of chinese sch to talk to us.. lols.. yea.. and we alwayz match-make he and veron.. apparently, both dun like each other.. XD actually, u r the one i least expected to talk to.. hahas.. cuz tt time i'm fat and ugly.. and u're popular and tall.. lols.. gurls like flocking to u.. "xinzhi xinzhi" XD well, when I moved to Singapore.. Xinzhi is the onli one who contacted me and still.. contact me every now and then.. lols.. and surprisingly, tingli's enemy became her fren and both of them got along pretty well! haiz.. i miss my msia fren.. our grp of Crystal.. ^^ (the name that Veron gave for all of us). Crystal consist of 9 gurls, Tingli, Veronica, YeeYan, PeiSha, KiatHang, KimHwa, PeiShi, Deepa and ME. lols.. yea..PeiShi, Peisha and KiatHang, I'm not very close to them lah.. but with the rest.. I am.. lols.. esp YeeYan, my v cute der fren.. lols.. I wun forget u der.. ^^ and KimHwa.. ever since u shifted alreadi, our letters grew shorter and shorter.. sigh.. mayb we have no common topic to talk abt bah.. anyway, when we come to secondary sch.. all of us are seperated.. PeiSha,KiatHang, TingLi, Veron and ME went to SMKK.. while Deepa went to SMKTE. Peishi went to dunno where oso.. =x cuz she's closer to tingli i guess.. lols.. and in Form1, we all in differ classes.. even more difficult for us.. and then, I moved to Singapore.. wah! super hard to contact since our timetables are different.. and when they get streaming.. i guess, all of us are seperated in our own ways ler.. tingli alwayz send me letters.. lols.. but i tink writting is kinda mafan, lols.. so, now she e-mail me.. but i still so damn busy to reply her.. =x veron veron.. my bestie.. lols.. muz have grown prettier alreadi.. but dun eat junk food juz to get fat lerh.. go exercise to get some muscles betta.. lols.. miss u all.. but i dunno when i can go back and visit u all lerh.. everytime go back oso rush this rush tt rush here rush there.. zzz once balik kampong jer, dah tak der mase pegi lawat lawat u all liaoz.. but every 2yrs i'll go back to balik kampong.. den onli go there for like.. 3/4 days onli.. so lil time.. lols.. and I cant confirm with u all when I'm free cuz later mama change plans.. den bopian ler.. lols.. anyway, thanks for ur last gathering.. haha.. so sorry to call u all like hours before the gathering.. XD to fitray (fitri): lols. will u held one party for me? =P jkjk. v hard to go like that..

haiz.




i love malaysia cuz i'm born there. and I hate ppl talking bad about malaysia infront of me. Dun say i'm rude, but i warn u alreadi. FKER off!!

It's so weird. Jeff went for camp.. so, we msged thru de first day, msg thru de 2nd day, 3rd day.. the number of message seems to b getting lesser n lesser. lols. of course, I didnt even expect him able to carry his mobile and play ard.. lols.. thought the whole week no msg from him ler.. hoping he had fun there! =) but kinda worried oso.. haiz.. talktalk to erjie abt some problems.. sometimes, i agree with her.. mayb I nid to find a solution for this.. sigh.. LOVE IS BLIND.

" when u are single, u feel lonely. when u're attached, u feel troublesome. when u're married, u feel like banging into de wall. when u're divorce, u feel lonely again. LOVE is soooo troublesome!"

I'm soooo sry dad! sigh. i din know i did so much things that hurt u.. I din even consider ur feeling at that point of time.. I'm so selfish. I'm really very sorry! =( wish I could have taken back those "things".. X(

lately, been TRYING to talk to my classmates.. lols.. i know it sounds weird.. but yeah.. i'm like.. alwayz de one not "IN" the class.. class outings oso i din go.. my classmates are rather good ppl.. lols.. they at least care? =x i know someone's classmates dun even care.. yeah.. but when things went on a rollercoaster ride.. i prefer to stay alone.. or u rather see me blowing up n kip on complaining abt this n tat.. XD sigh.. told some of them I couldn't make it to the Class Chalet ler.. =\ like last year's chalet.. i onli step in in de afternoon.. and went home.. my first chalet was with my best friends and buddies.. and i KNEW that my parents wun lemme go twice ler.. say, gimme an inch i wan a yard.. lols.. sad lah.. yyx asked me last yr, how come ur class chalet u not inside der? lols.. kinda embrassing for me to tell him the reason.. lols.. but honestly, it's okay lah.. i'm living under the coconut shell rmb? lols.. so, yeah.. =D

anyway, I've been playing lesser games.. din study.. seldom do jewelleries alreadi.. so, wad m i spending my time on? hmm.. shld b sleeping and eating bah.. lols! growing fat and ugly is my ambition. =x reality juz scares me.. lols.. oooyah! inCASE, si babydavs is reading.. gratz that u QUIT smoking! =D God loves u more now babydavs. =x hope u get into Poly soon! and I WILL WAIT TILL THE DAY BABYDAVS'S BOTAK! =D lols..

looking forward to something. which cannot be seen. cannot be touch. cannot be sniffed. cannot b heard.




I dunno wad it is either. =P

LOLS... hmm, ahma didnt know de full story.. lols.. if u have known de whole story.. lols.. sad sad lah.. anyway, i dun wish to talk abt it either.. lols.. yea.. so, like tt loh.. mayb juz try to lie low for de moment.. wait till i graduate den can fully and legally go out with him.. =\ lols.. see ahma, got bf or no bf oso got pros n cons.. =\ lols.. nice eatting lunch wid ahma.. haiz.. 07.07.07 me n dear celebrated our anniversary. lols. more info, proceed to our blog plz. =x lols.. ya.. went home kinda late.. or rather late lah.. sigh.. watched de live earth concert. why now onli ppl care n concern over the earth when it's dying alreadi since like...... so many years back ago and yet, so few ppl are doing anything to conserved the environment.. lols.. 08.07.07 is the class SteamBoat. sigh.. i wanna go but scared papa mama bushuang.. guess i betta stay home n b guaiguai for de time being.. lols.. if not, they take away my phones and keys, i cry ler.. =x haiz.. sianz lah.. being a teenager is troublesome.. neither i wanna grow up oso.. adulthood are juz too scary for me.. i'm afraid of alot of thing.. lols.. adults.. zzz.. juggling between so many things is tough.. compare other ppl with me, i tink i'm still betta off.. lols.. from now on, i shall remain in my shell until someone willing to help me knock off the shell and bring me out.. losl.. i doubt i would wanna go out.. =x lols. haix.. everyone's moving forward.. so, i guess i have to move on as well.. chatted with davs that night.. he really made me feel.... so... contented.. lols.. dude~ we shld chat more.. lols.. glad tt u alreadi give up on smoking.. ^^ and planning ur days ahead.. losl.. I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO SEEING A BOTAK BABYDAVS!! =D tt'll b like 3yrs of friendship.. lols.. anyway, anyone needs a debator in their team.. u can feel free to c0ntact david thru me.. he'll make u vomit blood within seconds. =x lols!! =x my deardear went for a week orientation camp ler.. =) thou how much i miss him, i hope he had fun there! n know mroe chiobus! =x for one week, i promised.. nono, he made me promise him, not to eat fries.. to work hard for this week.. lols.. assignment datelines are drawing near, n i'm fucking careless abt it.. lols.. too feedup with life ler.. =x wonder ahma will reprimand me anot.. =P

( ) smoked a cigarette
( ) smoked a cigar
( ) done weed
( ) kissed a member of the same sex ?
(x) drank something alcohol

SO FAR: 1

(x) been in love
( ) been dumped
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) been in a fist fight.

SO FAR: 2

(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) been arrested
( ) made out with a stranger
(x) gone out on a blind date

SO FAR: 4

( ) had a crush on an older person
(x) skipped school
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) seen someone/something die

SO FAR: 5

( ) had/have a crush on one of your FRIENDSTER friends
( ) been to Paris
( ) been to States
(x) been on a plane
( ) thrown up from drinking

SO FAR: 6

(x) eaten Sushi
( ) been snowboarding
( ) met someone BECAUSE of myspace
( ) been mosh pitting

SO FAR: 7

( ) been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken pain killers
(x) love/like someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
( ) made a snow angel

SO FAR: 10

( ) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
( ) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up

SO FAR: 13

( ) jumped into a pile of leaves
( ) gone sledding
( ) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school

SO FAR: 15

(x) used a fake/someone else's ID
(x) watched the sun set
( ) felt an earthquake
( ) killed a snake

SO FAR: 17

(x) been tickled
( ) been robbed/vandalized
( ) robbed someone
(x) been misunderstood
( ) pet a reindeer.

SO FAR: 19

(x) won a contest
( ) been suspended from school
( ) had detention.
( ) been in a car/motorcycle accident

SO FAR: 20

( ) had/have braces
( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
(x) danced in the moonlight

SO FAR: 22

(x) hated the way you look
( ) witnessed a crime
( ) pole danced.
(x) questioned your heart
( ) been obsessed with post-it notes

SO FAR: 24

(x)squashed barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
( )been to the opposite side of the world
(x) swam in the ocean
( ) felt like you were dying.

SO FAR: 27

(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
( ) recently coloured with crayons/colored, pencils/markers.
(x) sang karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins

SO FAR: 31

(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) kissed in the rain

SO FAR: 35

( ) written a letter to Santa Clause
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
(x)watched the sun rise with someone you care/cared about
(x) blown bubbles
( )made a bonfire on the beach

SO FAR: 37

( ) crashed a party
(x) have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people
(x)gone roller skating/ blading
(x) had a wish come true
( )humped a monkey

SO FAR: 40

( ) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
( ) screamed "penis" at a sport game.
( ) swimming with dolphins

SO FAR: 40

(x) got your tongue stuck to a pole/freezer/ice cube
( ) kissed a fish
( ) worn the opposite sex clothes
( ) sat on a roof top

SO FAR: 41

(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
( ) can do a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 3 hours
(x) stayed up all night

SO FAR: 44

( ) picked and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
( ) had/been in a tree house
( ) aren't scared to watch scary movies alone.

SO FAR: 45

(x) believe in ghosts
( ) have/had more than 30 pairs of shoes
( ) gone streaking
( ) been in jail

SO FAR: 46

I've Done 46 Out Of 125 Crazy Things

haha. lazy go online. gems assignment is dead. no one do oso lah.. plz lah ppl. plz dun rely on me n huixian.. zzz.. 6ppl in a grp = 3 onli. 3 mia. wtf. bois ARE useless! zzz. anyway, gl to u huixian. =) good luck to US too~ zzzz.. can fail ler. 40% byebye.

trying to slp on 8hrs.. =) for him, for mama, for dajie n for meimei. =) but i'm still feeling tired. zzz. so, does it matters whether i sleep for 8hrs? 6 hrs? 4hrs? no. i cant concerntrate in class either.. zzzz.. damn boring~~ 8th july is my class's steamboat outting.. hope can go.. =\ 7th july got ex ycss bbq outting.. wish can go.. =\ 6th july is OUR outting.. HOPEFULLY i can go \ make it.. =( 5th is......... cant go ler.. =(

anyway, got an invitation to join the NTU bazaar to setup a stall there, but... the dates i dun tink i can make it.. unless i dun go sch? =P it's on de 15 - 17aug. it's from wednesday to friday.. details are yet to b announced..

I WANNA GO FOR CULTURAL EXCHANGE TOUR!! =( either my frenz cant pei me, or my mom doesnt wanna sponsor me.. sigh.. [Japan] i missed! [USA] mama dun wanna sponsor [china] i dun wanna go there. -.- [Korea] no one can pei me~ sigh.. cant i go alone? *blink blink* anyway, WHO EVER WHO HAS MONEY AND LOOKING FOR PARTNER TO GO ANY OVERSEAS EXCHANGE PROGRAMME.. PLEASE CONTACT ME ASAP!!!! I NEED U!! =)

yeah. played badminton wid my papa, dajie n meimei.. lols. i guess it's been 1/2yrs since i touch it.. lols.. papa's getting old ler.. play awhile den nid rest liaoz.. =( but i love playing wid papa.. smashing and smaking each other.. good old days~~ good old days~~ yeah.bought 2new badminton racket.. =) so much more lighter than my beginner racquet but trying to get used to it.. =) any players? =P but de day aft tt, my shoulder aches n my hips! omg. they are sooooooo UNmoveable..zz.. walk like a penguin.. lols! dajie even worst than me.. her butt aches! XD

www.pingpongbuy.blogspot.com has soooo damn little sales.. nowadays, those money are juz enough to cover my cost of production lah.. sigh.. so many ppl been creating their own accessories juz like me.. and sell it online juz like me.. but i'm soooo damn thankful that most of my designs attracts more matured working ppl.. as they have better expericence in buying online and UNDERSTANDING wad's the meaning of term and conditions. =) my fastest deal was within 1day where she mailed me her order and asked for my bank acc no. the night itself i saw the money in the bank alreadi and i posted it to her on that night itself.. hahas! the slowest was like MONTHs.. which i practically STILL RESERVED for them.. zzz.. some ppl ask me y i dun put up a blacklisted ppl so others would know.. lols.. tt's becuz, i believe everyone has their own reason.. oh ya, talking abt blacklist, there's this one lady, she ordered from me, agree upon meet up, since it's a holiday, i DINT charge her for any meet-up cost which would b $2 at any other mrt than boonlay, and she's nice enough to me.. so ok, well, i meet up with her.. but she stood up on me! omfg! i waited for like 15minutes.. zzz. i called her on de cell phone for more than 14times n even used my dajie's phone to call her.. budden she din reply. wtf. really feel like bashing her up.. but mama told me to b patience, mayb she has something on? ok loh.. i wait.. yea.. she has a baby, mayb she has some matters to attend but WTF! i waited for her for like..... 1mth? 3weeks? i dunno. so tt dae, i accidentally missed called her n guess what? she messaged me the next day, asking for a meetup again.. zzz.. trust her for one last time n ask dearie to meet her.. heng~ this time she showed up. =) else, i have another raging dear to calm down besides myself. haha..